accountable

I need to be accountable. I went to my doctor, an endrocronologist, and he said that if I didn't make a commitment then I shouldn't come and see him that it was a waste of both of our time. He also said that I basically was on a mission from God (as the blues brothers would say), and that I needed to lose weight. For me losing weight is the only way I will live, otherwise I will get diabetes because I have insulin resistance and PCOS. So staying obese is a death sentence, diabetes is a slow death that I now can prevent, but if I get it it will be at my door every minute of every day.

So I need to be accountable. So for now, since Weight Watchers hasn't worked, gym clubs haven't yet worked, nor the many other things I have tried...this will be my accountable place. I never thought that this journal would become my struggle for life & weightloss journal but desperate times.

I have some goals.
1. lose 15 pounds before I see my doctor again (four months). I will strive for this but won't put myself down if this doesn't happen, as long as I am losing weight and getting healthier and trying.
2. stop eating wheat, sweets, lattes (tea or coffee) immediately.
3. get active. I am going to bring in my tennis shoes to walk at lunch time, and do something every night I can, anything.
4. make a plan for my calorie intake, review to see where I am and where I need to go with it.