WW update: Week 10

tried wearing my pedometer on one of my vacation trips to the City (SF that is) and it was so wrong. Ends up it said I walked .76 miles and I really walked 2.5 miles and then after that I walked another mile and half easy. So there ya go, now I don't feel so bad on how low the pedometer has read lately. I put it where I was suppose to and that didn't help.

Here is a quick update:

Start Weight: 258.2
Last Weeks Weight: 236
Current Weight: 234.0
Lost this week: -3.4 lbs.
Total Loss: 25.2
Left to 10% Goal: 0 lbs I MADE MY 10% GOAL!!
Final Goal: 150 (?)
Left to Final Goal: 83.6 lbs
Percent of weight loss goal: 23.2%
Start Dress size: 20/22W (...mostly 20 in Lane Bryant clothes which is at least a size bigger)
Current Dress size: 18, though I fit into my 16 jean shorts...tightly but not laying down tight (you know what I mean).
NSV (non scale victory) I had a healthy attitude and went even though I thought I gained again, I went and had a good meeting.

WW update: Week 9

This was a struggle and went to a meeting another night since I was in California visiting the folks.

Here is a quick update:

Start Weight: 258.2
Last Weeks Weight: 234.0
Current Weight: 236
Lost this week: + 2lbs.
Total Loss: 22.2
Left to 10% Goal: 2.8 lbs
Final Goal: 150 (?)
Left to Final Goal: 86.6 lbs
Percent of weight loss goal: 20.4%
Start Dress size: 20/22 (I went back and realized I was 22W in "normal" clothes and 18/20...mostly 20 in Lane Bryant clothes)
Current Dress size: 18 Even my 18 jeans fit a bit baggy.
NSV (non scale victory) I fit in the plane seat when I sat in coach. I always fit but had been getting to the point where the arm was starting to inch up a bit when I sat in an airplane seat. This time I had several inches to spare. This was MAJOR for me.

WW Update: week 8

This week was tough as well. I drag too much and at a bit of fast food. But have been getting back on to my pills and program off and on all week. Monday- Wednesday I did much better with both. And yesterday I did great with water, drank more than usual and more than minimum. It paid off. After all my drinking I was tired and bloated so that helped take off the water with a bit of weight too. So I am down. This is a shocker I thought I was going to gain up to 5 pounds on Tuesday that is how bloated I felt and how my bracelet/anchor fit. I am inspired. I am so close to my next 5 lb award but more important so very close to my 10% goal. I am going to a different meeting next week so that will be tough but that is okay, if it happens this week great, if not then it will be almost better back home with my meeting people. I am looking forward to the key chain!

Here is a quick update:

Start Weight: 258.2
Last Weeks Weight: 237.4
Current Weight: 234.0
Lost this week: -3.4 lbs.
Total Loss: 24.2
Left to 10% Goal: 0.8 lbs
Final Goal: 150 (?)
Left to Final Goal: 84.6 lbs
Percent of weight loss goal: 22.2%
Start Dress size: 20/22 (I went back and realized I was 22W in "normal" clothes and 18/20...mostly 20 in Lane Bryant clothes)
Current Dress size: 18 Even my 18 jeans fit a bit baggy.
NSV (non scale victory) I bought lacey underwear at Costco (I know not high quality but cheap and they are transition ones) and I bought the Large and it fit. Normally I would have to find XL or XXL when it came to anything from a "normal" store like Costco or any other store that isn't "for larger women" I feel sexier. AND people are commenting a lot on my progress.

WW Update: week 7

his has been a tough week. I did gain. Not entirely on program, trying to find a balance of real life and program and figuring out how to make program real life. My biggest concern is that my supplements take up all my "flex" points and thus I feel more confined in my eating. So I have had "night" of off program. That turned into a little more here or there without totally recording. I met with a dietician and she said I was doing well, she gave me a few more pointers and I will go shopping for more food after pay day and rearrange some of what I am eating now. I also relooked at some of the food I have been eating and realized the mushroom/turkey/chicken burgers are actually slightly more than 50% fat. So no more of those. I will use them at my birthday BBQ though. So that saves me on my birthday expenses. Overall things feel a little tighter. Which is more psychological I think. I am back on pills, now I started on Monday night. Then took two of the three "sets" of pills on Tuesday and all of them yesterday. :) It will be a daily challenge but I know I don't succeed with out them. I also have been doing my morning shakes: Yesterday and Today. Now I am recording everything again. And today I will go out for a walk for some amount of time. I will, I have it not only helps weight loss but I found out from my dietician it actually reduces insulin resistance for a couple hours after working out. Thus making my body react more normally. That is amazing.

Here is a quick update:

Start Weight: 258.2
Last Weeks Weight: 236.8
Current Weight: 237.4
Lost this week: +0.6 lbs.
Total Loss: 20.8
Left to 10% Goal: 4.2 lbs
Final Goal: 150 (?)
Left to Final Goal: 87.4 lbs
Percent of weight loss goal: 19.2%
Start Dress size: 20/22 (I went back and realized I was 22W in "normal" clothes and 18/20...mostly 20 in Lane Bryant clothes)
Current Dress size: 18 (the 20's need a belt and even then are baggy) Even my 18 jeans fit comfortable
NSV (non scale victory) I wore a shirt that use to be real tight and it looked good enough to go out in public. I could still stand to lose a few more pounds to make it look even better. But major coup to wear it. I love that shirt!

back on program

Okay so I have talked with my dietician and that really helped. Much more than I expected. I also talked to my therapist and realized I was being too strict with myself. Setting myself up for failure. My supplements take up all my "flex points" for the week (5 pts each day). But they help me function and really help overall wellness for me. So I need to tweak the "rules" for WW to fit my needs. I decided instead of doing my "well I will just eat a little off program" and not knowing how much I really eat over I am going to arbitrarily pick a set number of flex points I will give myself beyond the 35. It may slow down my weight loss but it will make it easier for the long run. Not only that but it will also make it so that I know what I am eating better. Heck it may decrease my intake of points. Now my decision of how many more. I as thinking 15 which is about half as much as the overall allowage and ~750 calories. I can only try. I have been adding points here and there and haven't been gaining weight.....so far. But this will probably make it so I am eating less off the program. Like today I did all my flex points and wrote down everything. I ended up using 9 pts. And that was mainly a small slice of banana bread. (be warned it is high in points)

So tonight I will face the scale and face the group and hope that everything is still going well and if it isn't scale wise then I will just get back on track like I am planning and work the program. Oh and exercise. That is my biggest weakness right now. Anyhow there is my update.

I liked JustJewls tummy shots.....maybe I will start doing tummy shots too. Since I have a gut I think I will try to include that since that is what I am most excited about leaving, though I think it will be the thing around the most, as I am told by my doctors about my condition. So tonight. Belly shot 1.

WW update: Week 5

So here are this weeks stats:
This week went pretty well. I bummed food off of a coworker because my finances once again got to the point that I had negative in my bank. But that is neither here or there. Anyhow. This week was on program. Though one night I did go off program, but picked something that ended up being on program. I splurged a little with a small dessert and some sangria but all in all it was fine. I didn't splurge more or less. And I had decided ahead of time and got right back on. I now have food at the house that cooks from opening package and warming up the grill to plate no more than 25 minutes. So that is very cool! So many have supported me. That has been the best thing about this week. I am also working on accepting myself and having self esteem. I have learned a lot and am still working at it. Making the promise to be here every week to record my progress, no matter if it is up or down, but having this, and also going to the meetings. By going to the meeting tonight I missed an important client meeting. It was tough, because it was the first strategy meeting I have been completely involved in as an equal. But my life is important, it won't matter about the client if I get sick and can't work. So now I must commit and stay true. I am proud of my decision.

Now the numbers

Start Weight: 258.2
Last Weeks Weight: 242.5
Current Weight: 239.4
Lost this week: 3.1 lbs.
Total Loss: 18.8
Left to Goal: 6.2 lbs
Final Goal: 150 (?)
Left to Final Goal: 89.4 lbs
Percent of weight loss goal: 17%
Start Dress size: 20 (though several 18's fit)
Current Dress size: 18 (the 20's need a belt and even then are baggy) Even my 18 jeans fit comfortable (no sucking in to get in them after a fresh wash and dry in the dryer.

Thank you again to everyone that has been supporting and helpful and sending me good thoughts. They are felt and appreciated.

WW update: photo 1 month

Here is where I am now. After a day of lounging around and walking a bit in the rain, but I figured the hair and clothes weren't the important part. Just trying to get my full body and face pictures in, for one month in the program. I am trying to do a set each month.

WW: week 4 update

I haven't been as hungry. On many days I don't think I am eating enough. Maybe 3 of the 7 days. I need to work on eating more but eating smartly. The supplements that my Naturopath gave me to help my insulin resistance is helping a lot. It is a lot of pills, I take 12 in the morning alone, about half herbal and half medical prescriptions. Lunch is up to 5, night is...well I don't know. Less than 12 more than 5. I remind myself that by doing this now I will be able to retrain my body and will be closer to being healthy on my own. I know it is helping in the weightloss. By having my body accept insulin, I am fuller faster and I don't have all that extra insulin just floating around my body.

I got another star this week so now I have two stars on my book mark. For non WW people, at 5 lbs you get a "I've lost 5 pounds" bookmark. And for every 5 lbs you get a gold star. I know it is simple but dang am I proud of that.

So here are this weeks stats:

Start Weight: 258.2
Last Weeks Weight: 246.2
Current Weight: 242.5
Lost this week: 3.7 lbs.
Total Loss: 15.7
Left to Goal: 9.3 lbs
Final Goal: 150 (?)
Left to Final Goal: 92.5 lbs
Percent of weight loss goal: 14.5%
Start Dress size: 20 (though several 18's fit)
Current Dress size: 18

starting point

This is how I started from the beginning. I am on the far left (usually I have my hair done etc, so this isn't my best picture) But wanted to have a starting picture. Every month I want to add a full body picture.

WW update: mid week 4

so I haven't been perfect, not tremendously bad but not within my points and went over them by Saturday (my week is Thursday to Wednesday). It has been hard not to go either the route of beating myself up or just shrugging it off and then doing it again.

My non scale victory though, my pearl bracelet that fit but was so snug it wouldn't move at all, now rolls back and forth on my wrist an inch or so. That is too cool. Of all the places I didn't expect it, my wrist is one. It helps keep me inspired. I will wear this bracelet a lot more to keep me inspired.

WW: week 3

Not a bad week so I guess it can default to a good week. I am struggling at work and with money and dating (because there is a lack of it) but not so shabby. I felt down again on Tuesday and Wednesday was again difficult and I was grumpy, but I ate which I didn't do the previous week.

So here are this weeks stats:

Start Weight: 258.2
Last Weeks Weight: 248.6
Current Weight: 246.2
Lost this week: 2.4 lbs.
Total Loss: 12
Left to Goal: 13 lbs
Final Goal: 150 (?)
Left to Final Goal: 96.2 lbs
Percent of weight loss goal: 11%
Start Dress size: 20 (though several 18's fit)
Current Dress size: 18 (now 20's are loose and 18's it much more comfortably, someone came up to me and pinched at the side of my slacks and said "hey you are getting more room" Albeit it was an invasion of space and rather unprofessional and a bit weird, it states how things are going for clothing size.)

I think this weekend is time to do measurements of body. Woohoo, can you tell I am excited?

WW-week 2

iscouraged. I didn't eat much on Wednesday, in fact just some apples and a banana and water and a green tea non-fat latte. Not on purpose, just busy at work. So was already feeling in a funk the day before so continued in a hungry funk for the WW meeting. I was wearing something slightly lighter, not on purpose just happened that way. And with all those considerations I am amazed I didn't lose more. In fact saddened I didn't. But I know I should focus on the fact I did lose, and that everything is in the right direction and once again I went to a barbque this time in my own house and there were so many sweets and chips and bread that it filled almost two large dining tables, and I didn't partake in any of it. I know in my heart this is a long haul and that I see the overall goal of 2 years. But Wednesday I just had a real hard time having my mind grasp that, instead it wanted to wallow in sadness and for not doing better. Even thinking "what am i doing wrong" which is ludicris since I am doing it all by the books so to speak. I was debating about switching programs from the core plan to the point plan even though I know I get obsessive about it and controlling and unhappy, but maybe that way I could make progress. Don't know. Obviously a lot for my therapist and I to talk about. My heart and mind agree this is still better than the alternative.

Start Weight: 258.2
Last Weeks Weight: 250.6
Current Weight: 248.6
Lost this week: 2 lbs.
Total Loss: 9.6
Left to Goal: 15.4 lbs
Final Goal: 150 (?)
Left to Final Goal: 98.6 lbs
Start Dress size: 20
Current Dress size: 20

WW update

kay one full week done. The good news is that it didn't feel drastic. The even better news is 7.6 lbs is now history. I haven't come up with an official format of tracking. I will figure out a more systematic way this week.

Thanks for all that are supporting my work and being a listening ear. I really appreciate the help and really feel the difference this time in how I am going toward this.

First goal is 10% of my weight so 25 lbs So I guess I can start there:

Start Weight: 258.2
Lost: 7.6 lbs.
Left to Goal: 17.4 lbs
Final Goal: 150 (?)
Left to Final Goal: 100.6 lbs
Dress size: 20

accountable

I need to be accountable. I went to my doctor, an endrocronologist, and he said that if I didn't make a commitment then I shouldn't come and see him that it was a waste of both of our time. He also said that I basically was on a mission from God (as the blues brothers would say), and that I needed to lose weight. For me losing weight is the only way I will live, otherwise I will get diabetes because I have insulin resistance and PCOS. So staying obese is a death sentence, diabetes is a slow death that I now can prevent, but if I get it it will be at my door every minute of every day.

So I need to be accountable. So for now, since Weight Watchers hasn't worked, gym clubs haven't yet worked, nor the many other things I have tried...this will be my accountable place. I never thought that this journal would become my struggle for life & weightloss journal but desperate times.

I have some goals.
1. lose 15 pounds before I see my doctor again (four months). I will strive for this but won't put myself down if this doesn't happen, as long as I am losing weight and getting healthier and trying.
2. stop eating wheat, sweets, lattes (tea or coffee) immediately.
3. get active. I am going to bring in my tennis shoes to walk at lunch time, and do something every night I can, anything.
4. make a plan for my calorie intake, review to see where I am and where I need to go with it.