WW Update: August 31 '06

This truly has been tough. Not being at work, sleeping much of last week because I didn't take my meds completely the last two weeks of being at work and the side affect is me getting lethargic and tuned out. I felt so out of it last week, just wanted to hide. And now I am in California and I thought I would eat fabulous we bough great stuff and yet I find I have been tired and also so busy. For the first few days when my parents were here I indulged a lot. And now I am just tired and eating half good and going some.

I met a guy and he is amazing. We have talked 4 nights in a row until 1 or 2. We spent one of those nights working on my resume and he submitted it at his work. it is amazing how kind some people can be. I am twitterpatted and yet tired from the late nights and also from the anxiousness of applying for jobs that are really worthy of me but at the same time my insecurity is making me question my worthiness of them. I know in my heart I am, but insecurity is a devilish thing and has lent me to eatting what little bad stuff is around or seeking out more. I am at the point of wanting to hide for a day and I am not sure why I should feel that way. Am I afraid of success soo much that I am overwhelmed? I am getting skinnier, getting my resume in great places, meeting an amazing man who has me feeling more thrill and passion for life than I have with someone in years...and probably the only time it felt truly mutual where it wasn't me inspired alone. The jobs he submitted me for are incredible. It would mean me stepping up to the plate and really shaking that doubt of myself. That is scary. All this is equalling to weight gain and not making good decisions. But I am getting motivated, I just need some time to let my head rest.


Start Weight: 258.2
Current Weight: 220.8
Lost this week: +2.4 lbs.
Total Loss: 37.4
Left to second 10%: 11 lbs
Final Goal Weight: 150 (108.2 lbs lost)
Left to Final Goal: 70.8 lbs
Start Dress size: 20
Current Dress size: 16